Thursday, April 06, 2006
10:28 PM
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time for me to relax ....
i am stupid...i am so busy that i got no time to drop down sth on my B day....anyway....that was not a very happi day either....i gpt wrote some diary...but i dont know where is it now....suan le...give up lah...my very first 18th birthday was not as beautiful as what i imagined afther so many years....it passed in very nornal way...juz like it was a normal sunday..which fall on 26 march....i am not very happi with my birthday....still i have to be thankful....Tc played 8 songs for me...okie...thats really memorable...but its not sustainable....Sl...gave me a Doreamon cushion after she played with me the treasurehuant.....i got a hello kitty cushion also....and according to yh,,,she is still planning for my b day...HOW NICE>>>>...i think my life is really a sad case...a lt of thingd did not followed the way i planned....and worst...i have no power to change them....to me...get out this kinds of helpless amd freedomless state seems will happened at the end of my life.....i always dont get the things i want.....according to MR ken..i think i am now stucking in the LImbo....ha ha...hjow funny...anyway...tests are coming in two weeks time...so i am noe preparing for it....i am quite relax nowadays...though i still got a lot tasks that i did not complete....but i intend to negelct them....i am so didigeneous......ha ha.....i am now in this dreamy and dizzy state... i am totaly aware of wats going on...(i am smart, ok?)but i intend to ignore them.....ya ya ya...i am lazy....fine....i still got my SAT words to memorize...chem test to prepare....sigh...
things are happening all the time...some followed my plan...some go out of the path...however...i need to get ready...though...I am tired...i want to give up...but how.....coz no such word called give up is existing in my dictionary.....
i took a test on that day.....my mental age is 44...how sad....there is too much sides of me...i dont even know which is the real on...anyway...
happi birthday to xian jun..hope u wil always stay cool and be happy all the times....and of course happy birthday to li jing....long time never contact you le...hope you will be fine...although u wont see this....juz wish u a happi birthday.....after all we are still friends...treasure that gal....thanks being such a wonderful person in my life....thanks to TC and Shi ling...for your wonderful present......
PS..i got in to the final of that yan jiang bi sai....its on this sat..jia you oh...
by....do not know wat to say de...
bian bian
you make my life beautiful-`