~bian bian~de Lifes***

2006-05-08T11:37:00.000+08:00

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in com lab 1...
ha ha...i am back....woo hoo.....i am damn busy loh....ha ha..coz SA1 coming then i need to help up in tuition centre....ha ha...so quite busy lah...anyway...theses days were really fun....ha ha...we formed a new girl gang...called S4...me as bao long aka kong long....ha ha..huang lin as hua ze lei aka niao shi lei...zhao mi as xi men aka gang meng.....yu han as mei zuo aka zuo zuo...ha ha..its damn crap lah....ha ha....but that my life lol...I AM SUPER PROUND OF S4....ho ho ho....anyway....thats abt S4 lah.... we shared a lot of jokes and gossips together.....erm.....ha ha....we are a bunch of bo yao baiZ....but we DONT CARE.....ha ha....we really enjoyed for being S4...ha ha...at least i am really happy these days lah....oh ya...and my com is coming...abd i did nothing for the thingy lol...ha ha..thses days muz pia lol...for coming test..and for the LA assignment...and for my competition....Oh ya...i for got to ma BIOLO le.....okie....he is the new FORm TEACHEr......sb who knows nothing abt singapore...And DHS>>>>>>....pls loh..talk tian shu in the lesson ...act so ethu in the calss....and most important HE GOT HUGE BUTT>.....why mdm nora is not coming back....oh my gosh....he think he is now teaching in KORea ah...everything muz obey his RULE......even include the stu8pid portfolio...what hell....i cant stand him liao lol.....super chou pi de ......hpmn....
okie...i fa xie wan le...byez....n sorry for updating so late....
PS...devi went for level camp...so i can slack in com lab 1....
PPs.....she LOST A LOT OF WEIGHT EH>>>AMAZING...
by......%_% de
bian bian

2006-04-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

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time for me to relax ....
i am stupid...i am so busy that i got no time to drop down sth on my B day....anyway....that was not a very happi day either....i gpt wrote some diary...but i dont know where is it now....suan le...give up lah...my very first 18th birthday was not as beautiful as what i imagined afther so many years....it passed in very nornal way...juz like it was a normal sunday..which fall on 26 march....i am not very happi with my birthday....still i have to be thankful....Tc played 8 songs for me...okie...thats really memorable...but its not sustainable....Sl...gave me a Doreamon cushion after she played with me the treasurehuant.....i got a hello kitty cushion also....and according to yh,,,she is still planning for my b day...HOW NICE>>>>...i think my life is really a sad case...a lt of thingd did not followed the way i planned....and worst...i have no power to change them....to me...get out this kinds of helpless amd freedomless state seems will happened at the end of my life.....i always dont get the things i want.....according to MR ken..i think i am now stucking in the LImbo....ha ha...hjow funny...anyway...tests are coming in two weeks time...so i am noe preparing for it....i am quite relax nowadays...though i still got a lot tasks that i did not complete....but i intend to negelct them....i am so didigeneous......ha ha.....i am now in this dreamy and dizzy state... i am totaly aware of wats going on...(i am smart, ok?)but i intend to ignore them.....ya ya ya...i am lazy....fine....i still got my SAT words to memorize...chem test to prepare....sigh...
things are happening all the time...some followed my plan...some go out of the path...however...i need to get ready...though...I am tired...i want to give up...but how.....coz no such word called give up is existing in my dictionary.....
i took a test on that day.....my mental age is 44...how sad....there is too much sides of me...i dont even know which is the real on...anyway...
happi birthday to xian jun..hope u wil always stay cool and be happy all the times....and of course happy birthday to li jing....long time never contact you le...hope you will be fine...although u wont see this....juz wish u a happi birthday.....after all we are still friends...treasure that gal....thanks being such a wonderful person in my life....thanks to TC and Shi ling...for your wonderful present......
PS..i got in to the final of that yan jiang bi sai....its on this sat..jia you oh...
by....do not know wat to say de...
bian bian

2006-03-24T21:15:00.000+08:00

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okie....i am back...ha ha...sorry...i am so busy that i got no time to update.....pai seh lah.....i damn busy loh....ha ha...today got test...biology..not so difficult.....but i am not so sure whther i can pass or not...should be can lah...ha ha..hope so....we changed a new form teacher...Mr Biolo....canadian....wah....super enthu one eh...cant stand him .....over emthu....have to admit the fact that he is a good teacher...but juz dont fit our style.....pathetic.....2 more days to my birthday....ai....i am so busy that i got no time to look forward my birthday....thats more pathetic....ha ha...anyway....i juz realised today that its going to be my birthday..coz shui shen calledd me and remind me....ha ha..thx oh..for wishing me hapi birthday so early...ha ha.....he mistook the date....ha ha...thats funny...i was painting for whole afternoon...that i am so exhausted....anyway..i got a good nap.....ha ha....i think i did sth funny.....but i cant recall...did i call sb....? think so...ha ha..anyway..i am a bit luan now...so nitz....and happi birthday to myself....
by...
bian bian ~

2006-03-08T23:30:00.000+08:00

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ok....i hav to admit the fact that i am veri lazy.....coz...i havent update my blog since ....ermmmmm...oh ya..V day...so sorri lah... I AM BUSY ok?...ha ha ha,,,anyway....this yr is my busiest yr so far.....countless tasks needs to be done...couple of things had happened...some made me hapi...some made me sad...lefe has always been like that...anyway ..i uded to it liao....now..become quite numb to all these liao...quite sad huh? .....monday...i fell down in hall...so i hurt my foot....pretty pain...especially when i got home....anyway..its getting better...i should not make the comment on wishing sb fell down..then we can move to 1st floor....tuesday...thai people come.....they still lokk the same....ha ha.....today..i got back my math paper...i did not flunk it....finally...ha ha....and....I LOST MY CARD HOLDER.....but then...luckily....SB FOUND IT>>>>HA HA HA.....i am lucky....thank god...or else...i will get some other stuff to do liao....ha ha...i wanna stop here liao...i am getting hyper in the evening......weird habit.....ha ha..
by...numb de
bian bian *~.~*

2006-02-14T19:21:00.000+08:00

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happi...V day.....! ha ha.....qiute hapi tpday...although my angel gave me nothing....anyway..i think...he will give it to me tmr....having a such lazy angel is really not sth good.....ha ha...today got chem test.....erm...i think i did quite well ...at least l tries quite hard lah....besides the mole concept ans...i think the rest atre all quite good lah.....very busy recently.....muz bake cookie...wrap present....ai...i am always very busy during festival season...bad point for being popular...haha....anyway..wish everyone hapi v day....muackz...
by...^.^de
bian bian

2006-02-11T00:08:00.001+08:00

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tired again...today i talked a lot ...basically i talked a lot everyday...but then today super duo....today's LA was fun..haha...we r discussing this homosexual topic...mdm nora was so cute...she was actually stating the fact n definition abt homosexual thing...haha.....when her lesson is a bit dirty ...it will always be very fun....ok..i am a bit bian tai...today is a veri important day...[ppl are getting o level results..n its the day for toto...we juz checked the number....so pathetic...we spent 134 on it...yet.....we seems got nothing....ai...luck is always not on my side definitely...i am going to hav chem test on V day...so cai..if i flunk it again...i decided i will pia for it....but i dont think it will help lah.....anyway..i will do my best then....cca today was basically fun.....but then the CB was veri weird ...kept telling me lame jokes.....as if i am intersted lohx...and our renovation to noticevoard was so nice.....and of course first achievement in a yr...our class noticeboard got 2nd in level...actually we can win 4b de...it juz we used too little recylcled materials....ai....again..luck is always not on my side....
by..tired..
bian bian

2006-02-11T00:08:00.000+08:00

2006-02-08T00:13:00.000+08:00

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i am tired ...so juz leave sth short....em..today finally get back my wireless network system....pretty pround of my self...although i have done onthing much....i was checking my to-do-list juz now...then reliase that i got a lot stuff to do...busy ah......got test coming after test...this is the qing chun i should be enjoying now.......ahh ahh....pathetic...got a lot of stuff to complete so mux be more hard working...i was talking to mr fong today..and then juz realise that he muz have veri serious acne prob when he was young...his face look like the yue qiu de surface loh...ha ha.....oh no...i have been more n more evil le..cannot muz gan zheng...actually he lokk super handsome with tt face....ha ha...worse....i hve been dustbin for quite few days..but still ...i am out of the whole thing...i didnt really know wat was going on...anyway...too tired to think...clara amazingly get into the top few of C.S..(not tt cs)...eva...really got ji ba shua zi ah....rich ppl......i didnt even rmb the show was going on last week....pai seh ah...anyway...i only know her face....so she wont mind bah...i hav been talking nonsense again....anyway...cheer up.....i am already the lucky one....all the best to everyone...
by...TIRED<>
bian bian

2006-01-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

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it has been a long time that i have not update my blog.....i am so bloody hell de busy loh.....i got this super long list everyday...to remind me the things that have not been doneas yet....i got two tests laz week....eh....i cant really depict whether i will pass or fail....i think my instinction cant work any more liao...ha ha...i lao le mah....i got lot of stuff to do.....to complete....ai....tired....today i watched thins movie...Heavenly Creatures.....oh my god...they are all stupid mad pervert.....thats sp errr/\.......i amnow watching campus superstar....i think clara will out loh.....she juz dont have the guan jun xiang.....ai...jiao you for her.....
by...busy busy busy busy...de
bian bian

2006-01-09T19:28:00.000+08:00

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yo ho...i finally get bCK MY NETWORK LIAOZ.....yeh...i am so hapi...things that happened past few days....haiz...i already tried my best to forgot them....anyway it is not worth for me to think abt it....haiz....i always do this kinda of self-convincing stuff...ha ha...but it works....n works pretty well for me.....i think tt is y i always can easily get myself out from sth bah...ho ho...i am so wei da......ha ha.....i was searching things on line aimlessly juz now.....then i suddenly relised that all the galz made same mistakes as i did....there are plenty selfish n self-centred ppl out there...i am not angel....i no need to save everyone or to change ab....i even gao bu ding my own stuff...y do i bother to care abt their business.....y i cant be the receiver....i cant always be the keeper in everyone's life....if you take it as granted...dont treasure me...ho ho ho....BYe BYe loh.....i am not going to make same mistake again....i hav to live for my own...not for anybody else....ha ha...thats then my life. ...mum is correct ...some ppl are too clever to play with them...ha ha....so let them zi sheng zi mie bah....i am not going to be so stupid again liao...see....how clever i am....ha ha....i can get all these from a short psg that i read online.....clever ppl mah....ha ha ha...i am not going to make my life so miserable agagin......i will work hard for my wishes...and ..ha ha...as i always want....i am going to have a wonderful yr....in age of 18....ha ha....so jia you loh...
by....
bian bian

2006-01-04T23:06:00.000+08:00

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ah....我要累死了...first time in my life i got know the feeling of exhausted....i am so so so tired.....累到虚脱．．．hoh...today the cca orentation...hoh...my god i repeated myself 6 times today eh,....thats so so so so so tiring loh...n the sec 1s ...if you juz tel them 'feel free u can walk around...' they wiil juz use their EYES not LEGS to walk around...got to instruct them to stand up....hoh....ben oh....plus...today i saw the CS de orentation ....ha ha ha ha ha..i was laughing like mad....ha ha ha...they never change their style one leh..every year pop out from the table...ha ha...thats so CS....although its super tiring...i still enjoyed the whole process....i am so briliant ...that...i tried my best to chnge the yi tuo la ji in art room to sth that can be displayed....HA HA HA HA...I AM SOO TALENTED....ha ha....itd really good to see all the effort has been paid off..(ha ha..hope so..)today we finally zheng le lao jiang....ha ha....expected sh cant cheng qi lai the sexy ...hot red...christmasy....pajamas...ha ha..should ask her go Slimfit jia xiong hu li...ha ha....err...not tt funny lah....anyway....thats onli the 2nd of my sch life in 2006...
PS...I HATE THE NEW DM>>>>>SO AP>>>
Plus>>>MR KIW IS MY CME TEACHER>>>HOW AM I GOING TO SURVIVE?>>>>>>>>>
ai...
by %_%
bian bian...

2006-01-02T21:48:00.000+08:00

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sch is going to re-open eh....hmmmm....i dont know i should be hapi abt that ot sad...feel like i hav never got my holiday....ahhhh....sad....my holiday is over...and i am going to hav test on the 1st week.....hpmn....so bad....and i am going to be damn busy then.....eh...poor thing....hopefully tmr is a lucky n smooth day....ha ha...i havnt done my hmwk yet....chinese one....i even forgot how to do liao...ha ha....ah ya...can bu zuo hor.....ha ha jls wont mind lah...ha ha....jia you oh...now no one say jia you to me le....everyone is heading to different directions...wat can i ask...i juz want sb say jia you to me....ormaybe good luck...y i always hav to be the obe who say tt first...thats really sad..i am really sick of doing tt liao....HOPE SB CAN SAY STH TO ME.....
hai....
by....#_#
bian bian ~

2006-01-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

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new year.......
hapi new year guys....my veri first bloggie in 2006....hope new year i can have a veri fresh start...life change a lot last yr...hope things will getting better...especially my results....ha ha ha....em....besdies tt....hopefully all my new yr wishes can be fulfilled...ha ha..so greedy....em..wanna.stop here...
by..
bian bian

2005-12-26T01:49:00.000+08:00

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ho ho...merry christmas///the veri first bloggie abt my christmas...i am pretty happy these days...ha ha...i shop a lot...eat a lot....i think i got great times....yesterday..i got msg from piggie...ha ha ...so happi to receive his msg...but the veri upset thing was...he lost my present...em...i heard its hello kitty toys eh...ahhhh..so sad...hai me keep thinking abt the toys yesterday....i am going to kill that thief oh...so bad....hpmn....i am veri qi dai abt my present eh....ahhhhh....ha ha...anyway...its great to receive christmas wishes from a friend that i lost in touch for 1 month...ah ya...i am still thinking abt the hello kitty...ha ha..xian jun is coming back soon...wat kind of present he will bring eh...ha ha,....i am so materialistic.....ha ha...thats a bad habit oh...yesterday i got a super pretty dress from my godmum..thats her 17th birthday present...BUT ITS TOO TIGHT FOR ME.....hai me cant even breathe for the whole night...and most important...hai me cant eat the log cake...ahhhhhh....i am so suai..ppl lost my present...yet gotta wear super tight dress...AND CANT EAT THE LOG CAKE.....hai....ha ha....anyway..besides all these ...i am still enjoying my holiday...and...my pretty godmum told me.....wei le that dres...i better jian fei....hor.....i was like ,,,huh...she said this to me in the party before countdown eh....so so so bu lang man....but ....i enjoyed everything i got this year..thank god for giving me such wonderful and fruitful year...thank god for granting me such wonderful friemds...i will learn from my mistakes...try to be a better person.....try my best to be a nicer gal....thanks for guiding me all th way here.....hope my dear god will read wat has written inside my heart and give strength and guide me to fulfill them...
Thanks to all of my friends ...thanks for being so kind to tolerant my bad habots ..thanks for accompanying me all the way here...thanks for supporting me all the time...thanks for loving me so much to help me to become a better one...thanks for teaching me , guiding me...helping me and thanks for lending me your shoulder when i wanna cry..thanks for being there all the time to comfort me...thanks for all the love ,care that you guys gave me...thanks for sharing my happiness with me...Love you always....
Thanks to my mum ,dad,my sister..and my families..thanks for helping me and thanks for loving me so much..thanks for bringing me into this world....thanks for everthing that you have given me...
wish evryone a veri merry christmas...hope all the ppl who love me ...will be hapi all the time..hope the ppl i love will be happi all the time...
Meryy christmas...and hapi new year....
by....gan ji bu jing de...
bian bian...

2005-12-21T22:48:00.000+08:00

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yoz...i got a new laptop oh....ha ha... i am so happy ..christmas coming soon..which
means that my holiday is going to end...ah so sad....got a lot things that i havent finish...em....thinking that i am going to ai ma again...but anyway..i enjoyed this holiday..ha ha...so happi ...coz my new com is super nice...em..thx my dad...he is leaving tonight...wish him all the best...yi lu shun feng,,,i am going to change my blogskin....ha ha...a lot of ppl are coming back these days....muz get ready to receive my presents...ha ha...so AP...ANyway...happi holiday...ti qian wish jls...HAPPI BIRTHDAY....
by..xin qin bu cuo de..
bian bian..~

2005-12-12T23:23:00.000+08:00

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yoz...try to update my com....em...but i think...there are still lots of problems...thinking to change a com....ha ha....but no money....ai...recently poor until wanna be a begger...ha ha...who is willing to donate...ha ha...got a lot of plans that i did not complete...hopefully i can really finish or complete sth after this holiday....make it be more chong shi...ha ha..hope i can...em...so tired these days...still in the changing process ...ha ha....waiting for it.....dunno wats wrong with my com...ai...still gotta work on it,...
by...*-*
bian bian

2005-12-07T22:30:00.000+08:00

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ha ha...lomg time no see..recently realy veri busy....but also very empty at same time ..mum & dad quarrelled again....juz pretended i heard nothing...anyway..this time i got no one to complain...my dustbin now is in China ..enjoy his fabulous holiday....do i have the right to disturb....got no way also...ha ha...coz....besides his hp number...i know nothing abt my dust bin..thats really ..em..weird....haiz.....i am now in my room....i got to type as hard as i can to cover the noise they made....my life is really sad...ha ha ha....em...feel so bored.....my phone almost died...ha ha..for once i no need to delete my msg for whole week ..which happened at least 5 months ago....ha ha....today got my phone bill..guess how much...553.75....i am dying...really sent a lot of wu liao de msg to a lot of wu liao de ren when i was in USA....xin tong ah....anyone reading my blog now..willing to donate for me...thx.....i will appreciate your help....ha ha....lucky my mum never scold me...muz be guai guai de ...ha ha....i am such a jian feng shi duo de ren..ha ha....so bad....but....that shows i am smart ..not as dumb as THEM**.....AI..GOT TO GO BACK TO MY WORK LE...stop here......
Dying....
PS...eh..piggie ...can you leave your QQ number here in my blog....thx....
By....Dying ..Dying...Dying...Dying.....de
bian bian...!_!

2005-11-27T15:09:00.000+08:00

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yoz...
i am back...ha ha...actually i am supposed to undate my blog yesterday ...but...em....u know ..jet-lack..then i fell asleep then...i am so tired...that i LAZY TO UPDATE LAH...ha ha..such a good excuse...em..i got a veri, super, fantastic US trip..ha ha...i bought a lot of things,,,and spent a lot of money....>_< haiz....ha ha ...i should say...its expected that i would spend a lot...em..today a lot of ppl are leaving...no matter from my heart or from my place...hope everything will be fine with al of us...watching a super lame show now..ha ha so stupid...em...thats all i wanna say....the cracks on my hand getting much better...still prefer the climate here.ha ha ....em..thats the end of today's blog..ha ha....
ATTENTION>>hey..enjoy your holiday bach home...dont forget abt the promise oh...u promised u wil fulfill it before christmas...(ha ha..u know who u are )...
super slack de
bian bian $_$

2005-11-19T06:30:00.000+08:00

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yoz..everyone....ha ha..thx for missing me...I AM NOW IN USA OH>>>>>>>...i am now in silicon valley...Apple Shop..ha ha..but unfortunately..i got nothing to buy..things are tooo expensive here...so happi these days....knew a lot of great people....visit a lot of great places..most important ....I VISITED STANFORD UNIVERSITY....that is rea lly a fantastic place....ha ha....i bought a lot of stuffs...ha ha....em..muz jie zhi.....ha ha...i really love here....hope one day i can make my way here.....thats going to be great...ha ha..there are too many things in my brain....ha ha..but i dont know how to phrase it...emmmthank my mum...help me...all the way....and my dad....i really enjoyed this trip....hope this is not the last time .....jia you oh...
by...happy de...
bian bian

2005-11-05T22:56:00.000+08:00

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HA HA HA.....I AM SO HAPPY TODAY.......
FIRST OF ALL....I GOT MY PRESENT FROM MY FATHER........THEY ARE SO NICE....
HA HA..2ND.....I GOT THE US VISA.........I GET NEARER TO MY DREAM.......JIA YOU OH......HA HAEM..THESE DAYS SPENT A LOT.....HA HA..MUZ LEARN TO BE MORE TRIFTY....HA HA...OH,,BEFORE I FORGOT...PIGGIE TREAT ME LUNCH TODAY... I REALLT ORDER A LOT...HA HA..I ACCIDENTLY SAW THE BILL...70PLUS....HA HA..FEEL A BIT GUILTY...HA HA...TRY TO BE NICER TO PIGGIE..HA HA.....
OKIE...SHALL STOP HERE....
GOOD NITZ......
XIN QIN CHAO BANG DE
BIAN BIAN.....

2005-10-31T23:05:00.000+08:00

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haz....
these days..quite happy...em....yah...haha..1stli.....I PASS MY BIO N CHEM........ha ha...although i got not veri good result...but..em....i think i am quite satisfied liao....coz..i didnt work hard at all.....so ha ha...i muz be more zhi zu....i am going to US in few days...so excited....hope everything will be okie with visa....ha ha...shall stop here...xin qin veri de hao eh....ha ha..good luck for everyone who got Os ..jia you oh....good luck to u guys...
by...xin qin veri good de
bian bian

2005-10-27T23:38:00.000+08:00

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dying....
sorri...these days keep leng luo my bloggie...i always cant find time to sit down n start writing my blog....coz my brain is simply not working these days....when is my holiday.....got back my result le....ai....flunk my 3-ple science....i think i will pass bio, chem...ohy ...ai...is gonna to b veri diffcult...coz i did super badly in my SA1...so how..no choice...hav to work extremely hard next yr....ai...today met mr ng..he made me super upset...he said.."u ah...came to DHS..only know how to chi he wan le..nv study one....i am really disappointed".....that really mde me feel so bad...even remind me how much effort i put in to get into IP..ai...i know i got potential one lai..but simply do not know how to unleash them....i juz cant work hard....feel so bad..but got no one to talk to..thats even worse....who will understand me ne?...initially..got piggie..nowadays..the most often thing we said..1.gud nitz...2 i think u fel asleep..so..good nitz..3 sorri ..now busy..msg u ltr...the next msg will always be 1 or 2......ai.......sad....
ai..whats wrong with my life..now lost confidence in everything....AHHHHHHHHHHH......so frustrated....the only thing i can do now is to have a dramatic change in my result..which will at least kill 90% of activated brain cell....as the inactive brain cell...can i juz fang guo tai men?....hah..what am i talking abt....xiao xiao....say a lot of things...which i should not say....
ah ya....wanna go n sleeo le....
sad+upset+stressed+frustrated+mad de
bian bian &_&

2005-10-19T20:53:00.000+08:00

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now in china' net bar...
feel so bad...juz now get veri angry ober my jiu jiu...do frustrates...today shop a lot..until no money left..hope my grandpa can give some money tmr....or,,, i will die veri can......ai..dunno wat to day le.....em..now feel nothing to do..ai......slack..worrying abt my results ..hope everything can be fine..nought a new coat...like it quite a lot....spend a lot money..ai ... i am really a shopping queen..ha ha..shall stop here..ha ha.....
by....&_&
bian bian

2005-10-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

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at changi airport..
ha ha .. i dont know changi airport also got free net access one eh..amazing....ha ha..now going to leave singapore for 3 days..ha ha...send back my sis to china..ha ha... my fligyht is one 12 30...am.....em....such a good time..i lyk changi airport so much...it lokks so beautful ..ha ha..long time nv visit my blog....ha ha..sorry lai....for frenz who r missing me now.. i am so touched....ha ha...until lei liu man mian liao...dont miss me too much ah.,.. i wil be back .....3 days.....ltr......ha ha....yesterday hang out with piggie...n tai wan guy...then raining...got to sharte umbrella with piggie...he is so nice...(SEE I GOT PRAISE U OH)....let me occupy 2/3 of the umbrella.....but....in the end...i am the one who fell sick eh....how unfair ......ha ha,...the taiwan guy finally show the nature of taiwanese....BA GUA>....ask so mani stupid questions.....eh......ha ha ...gotta go le/.....dont mis me oh....will bring present for u guys de...good luck for all my results.....
jia you...

PS>>>> I WIL BE BACK ON 21/10/05.... 6 am.....ha ha......gt it ?
missing ya....
by.....
a bit shou shuan de
bian bian....

2005-10-15T00:53:00.000+08:00

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tired....
it has been a long time that i never visit my bloggie..these days were really hard for me....finally...exam, over....now can enjoy my life...ha ha..but so scared to get result ..i got no confidence at all...how..wat if i got super lousy reasult....ai....sad.......
going back china next week....dunno wat will happen..buit so happy that i got a chance to shop...ha ha...overall.. i think i did OK for my exam...but nowadays... i dont usually trust my insdinction....ha ha..these days ...i am reading a super nice book...written by donald trunmp....my idol....he rox ..ha ha..gotta sleep liao..tired....
by .
bian bian

2005-10-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

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crying.....
now listening to a song called ....ke bu ke yi bu yong gan...suddenli feel like crying...an now.. i am crying....
these days have been a tough period for me..todays matha paper...perhaps was the WORST paper i have done throughout my whole life...and...its the 1st time i felt terror....during exam....I WAS TREMBLING WHEN I DOING THE PAPER....nearly broke down in the half way.....but ....fortuantely... i didnt.... i am the strong gal....dunno wat to say...the whole thing is juz a disaster....really wanna get quit from all these....now i am losting my direction...and ....goal....i am not so sure about where i am heading to.....this is really happened fisrt time in my life....that i am not sure about where to go.... am i really not that capable....or...is it everything that i am doing now is really out of control????...losing strength..confidence... i am no longer the one that i used to be.... really wanna find a place to break down....want to cry... but cant..still got my physics paper to work hard....muz admit the fact that i am not a hard-working kid....now i even doubt abt the fact that i got great potential....maybe i am juz as ordinary as the rest....no more potential can be unleashed....maybe....
nothing more to say....jia you for my ohy...chem...hopefully can do wel for my math p2......
god bless....
depressed.....de...
bian bian...

2005-09-28T19:36:00.000+08:00

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me again.....
em..juz now read xh de blog..ha ha ...dunno him at all....and dont feel he is shuai either....but...he is such an EMOTIONAL guy..oh my god ..i have never see ppl write blog like tt....oh my jesus christ...ha ha....em..quite like his style of writing ..but...compare to me..he still need to work hard lah...ha ha..joking...em ..he is really a lucky guy....that make me veri envious....maybe...coz he got things i dont have.....but i am not jealous...coz ..there is no use of jealous him...ha ha..lame.....em..juz curious abt his personality...he is not an easy one oh...ha ha....( shui shen ,u know hor?!)....ha ha..evil.....i think i need to build up another blog le...so that i wont waste so much money on buying different kind of diary book....ai....i juz cant stop collecting the cute stuffssssss.........y.......ai....now muz go back liao..try to edit my phy ref.to mpp..see how pro i am....
hax.....
by..a bit shocked de
bian bian >"_'<

2005-09-28T19:05:00.000+08:00

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em....no title...
today..em xin qin a bot fu za....ha ha..first time see piggie's dull face...feel so sorry for him....ai....but i dont know how to an wei ppl eh...nvm....i think he wont blame me de...ha ha ..hope so...i have already done my best...hope he wil be fine...exam is really sth that u hate most....i have been writing bio notes for 2 weeks...yet..i cant finish..ai....dying.....anyone can save me.....nowadays have to work on a lot of things...i am so so so so tired......today hand in the money alredi..hope there will be nothing for my visa....everything..can move smoothly...PLS LAH.....ok....ai ai ...now still have to work on my mpp reflection...is my life really that sucks...i really gotta nothing to reflect liao ei.....i am juz repeating myself..ai..dont care lah....juz copy n paste my physics reflection bah....dont balme me mr chiang.....sorry....jia you for everyone..cheer up...life have to go on...and i muz go back to my mpp reflection now....
by..dunno wat to say de
bian bian "_"

2005-09-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

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good to get back to my bloggie....
generally,2day veri happi....did quite wel for my math test...
so happy to see that finnaly all my hardwork got paid...2day get
payment form of my us trip..ha ha..need to pay a lot..2725 sth...
cant really remember that exact amount..anyway ..feel happy for it...
now the only thing that i am worrying abt is my visa...hope i wont get rejected..but..ai...who knows...i am always the most unlucky one...i always need to STRIVE hard for all my destinations...besides this...there are even more serious stuffs that i need to worry abt...1st should be my exam bah..its juz around the corner..ai...but i juz cant pia it now.....ha ha...maybe sth wrong with me..dunno lah...anyway.. i will work hard for it....jia you...dunno wat happened..nowadays keep knowing guys caled jun...1st should be that AG..called niang jun or liang jun...the 2nd one will be the taiwan gguy..xian jun...he juz broke up with his galfriend(wat does that to do with me?)ha ha..these days got a lot of fei wen with him...dont wanna care abt it..let those fei wen wait to be sloved after the exam bah....today also share a lot with piggie..ai ..cant help with it...i always got so many things to talk to him..even more than my father....ha ha..he is now qualified to be my father liao....ha ha..dunno wats wrong...anyway..he is really a good friend..a friend should be treasured...em...he will cry when he see this bah...ha ha...hope he can slove all his probs....shi ling also...ha ha...happy to see that she managed to get rid of that super disgusting AG...(HE SEND ME THE LOVE POEM>>>EWWWWWWWWW)))))))))).....
a lot of stuffs need to write today...ha ha...tmr got an an de lesson...yeh...so happi..ha ha..can slack in LA again...suddenly wanna keep the habit of writing blog..see wat will happen 10 or 20 yrs ltr...hope the tech wont be so advanced that i can keep all my memories here....hope so...now gotta go and pia my chi reflection liao.....jia you for my EOY...
super high de
bian bian

2005-09-24T16:53:00.000+08:00

~??~*haha these days very busy have to study for my final year ....erm hope can past with flying colour...

2005-09-23T22:46:00.000+08:00

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tired.....
i think i lost the energy to laugh....
thats really sad....change a new telpate...however...
ppl say its totaly out of my style..anyway..wateva...
these days veri de AP...i also dunnoe y...ai...release
my stress bah...2day played captains bal...so haapy n fun..
vickie n the wateva jun 's relationship end liao..eh..nv see
such disgusting guy before...send me that kinda of disgusting
poem....EWWWWWWW........send to mr piggie.....he comment on it...by saying thats cul...ai weird ppl always got weird taste....ai...
today make fun of lots of ppl..so sorry for them.....but i gotta fun...happy abt that...recently got a lot of fei wen....hah.....
with the tai wan guy..ai.....dunno wats wrong with me..he is a
pretty nice guy..he treat me veri wel...really...know how to make me
happi..thats most important....hah...but i juz got no chemistry with him....besides sharing cold jokes....ai.....somemore he is younger than me.....ai......stress....ppl i want dont usually get my hint....
ppl i am not so sure abt always drop hints to me.....ha ha ha...dunno.. y i will struggle with these kinda of probelms.......i have nv met these probelms for veri long time.....ai...i even not sure abt my own feeling ...ha ha...thats even worse....
ah ya..dunno wat i am writing....
PS...i think this blogskin quite suit me...at least auite suit the very real one of me...ha ha..so weird...dunno wat i am writing....
GIve up lah..brain cant work....
by....#_#
bian bian....
AI...........AI.........AI........

2005-09-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

~便便~***
new template..
find this new template online..
ha ha..so cute..but..ha ha..not my style..
ha ha..anyway..mum said..青春不留白。so ..i should
not liu bai...ha ha..lame..these days super tired ..
now is my turn to feel stressed..ha ha..end-of -year
exam is coming...everyone seems in the mood..
i am an exception..ha ha..i am so tired that i
even got no strength to type..oh ..my god....
ai..muz jia you liao..or i will die veri can this year....
dunan high got the you yi jiang..thats amazing..all
thanks for qls...thankx for his contribution..
no mood to think abt those compicated stuffs..
so i decided to push everything 1 year ltr...
ha ha..not a wise decision....but shows that i know how
plan for my life...(LAME)..ha ha..
wanna stop here....muz go sleep le...
or i will die on the bed tmr....
I WANNA SLEEEP.....
not veri hello kitty de
bian bian

2005-09-13T10:22:00.000+08:00

at sch....
now i am at sch....ha ha...in com lab eiiiiiiiiiiiii 1 bah..
i guess so ..ha ha...today...my friend visit me..ahhh..
stomache......ai..these days veri de suai......now actualli
having math lesson.....but we are all slacking here...
yesterday veri de happi... finally can go for IMT le....
YEH ....YEH....YEh.....suddenli feel that my bloggie so so so
childish.......ha ha..got nothing 2 say le.....ha ha..should stop here..having recess ltr...now thinking wat to eat ltr...ha ha...
hey..shui shen..good luck for your exam....
PS....MY HANDPHONE SPOIL...SEND TO REPAIR....COST ME 70 BUCKS.......TMD
by..xin qin bu sguang de
bian bian

2005-09-04T16:38:00.000+08:00

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beginning of holiday
ho ho ho....holiday start liao oh....
bbbut i dont feel happy at all....
ai...coz the exam is juz around the corner...
end of year ezam...sounds very tough....ai...
yesterday treat sb lunch..lucky its the
beginning of month...or i will be da po xue le...
ha ha ....but any way....i like to help ppl
who are in difficulties....ai...i am always that kind..
ai....ai ....ha ha ha ha.......yesterday went
mediacorp to watch the debate.....ha ha ..
the free debate part is really cute..
the third speaker from fan fang is really
cute and the fourth and...
ah ya...the whole team is very cute lah.....ha ha ha...
ha ha..cant wait to see the show on TV.....
plus...the zhongchang is damn fun...ha ha ha...
em..quite enjoy.....
ha ha....
by ....*-* de
bian bian

2005-08-26T23:03:00.000+08:00

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time flies....
time really flies....dunno wat to write..ha ha..but suddenli got a lot of things to do ...I hev been sick for many days....now still feel veri sick..now realise how i can be important to sb...ha ha... i now need to comfort a lot of ppl...ahhhhhhhhhhh.....am i that important......ai....ha ha ha.... anyway...ha ha i like to be important....睡神....jia you for your prelim.......do your best for it ah.............ha ha...dont slack le.....i am going to hav phy and bio test next week...so u know wat to do har...ha ha...now got to go back to my work liao...jia you...
by super sick....
bian bian

2005-08-14T12:58:00.000+08:00

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wow..
libarary again...
juz now went out again..trying to do sth with my stupid fringe..
ha ha...its even worse now...ai..i made a stupid decision again....
now in the libarary....ha ha..trying to study..but end up slack in the com again..
ha ha...oh...my stupid fringe look...defenitely will scare a lot of ppl tmr....ai ai ai..
yesterday sb laugh at me alraedi loh......juz now view ag de friendster..suddenli feel that..
she is no longer the one i knew before...everybody is changing now......how abt me?
thats a difficult qn....a lot of kids surrounded me ...ans study ing me how to write a stupid bloggie...ha ha ha....kids are cute..but i dont like them in the library.....
ha ha ha......now going to borrow bks.....
ha ha..
by ha ha ha de
bian bian

2005-08-13T17:36:00.000+08:00

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ha ha..2 dae got good friend visit me.....so got stomachache..
now feel much better..ha ha...2dae went out andbuy a lot of bokks..now going to cut fringe..ha ha...suddenli...fell like changing my hairstyle...ha ha...hope it wont scared ppl...ha ha..
juz read my bloggies...suddenli realise that..all my bloggie are full of singlish...ai ...muz work on my eng liao..ha ha//generally...
2dae is a good day....hope it will mantain..ha ha....next week got lang arts test...hope i will get veri good result..
PS...got back my math paper alredi...ha ha...I PASS MY MATH>>>>>>>>...
ha ha ha.....
by..xin qin bu cuo de...
bian bian #_#

2005-08-10T22:15:00.000+08:00

~便便~***
take a break...
now still struggling with my history stupid
essay....life realli sux...ha ha...yesterday
went out with frineds and watch the national
day celebration...ha ha..really gotta no time to
appreciate the fireworks,,,coz gotta take care of
my sis...but..thats really nice....ha ha....
saw a lot of stars yesterday...suddenly realise that..they are juz normal ppl...juz..they got thicker make-up...qiu ze got nice face...but i cant really appreciate his song.....the indonesian idol really got very powerful vocal...
but...i am..too busy..to listen to her song.....
ha ha ha..sorry lah ..indonesian idol.....so wish you all the best for your concert.....ha ha
...the superstar also not bad lah....juz..there was a super despo besides me......ha ha ha..sorry for let u got scolded lah..ha ha....now got to go back 2 my essay liao....
wanna kill the black fattie.......ahhhhhhhhhhhh..
by....
bian bian...*8_8*

2005-08-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

~便便~***
happi birthday S'pore
Happi birthday S’pore..
Ha ha..national day holiday…ha ha…
time really flies..Today a bit sad..ha
ha..coz juz got my phone bill…cant
imagine that I sent like
1000++++..sms last month..wow..
that’s really the highest record..
so far….so ….thins month
muz keep promise to be more
trifty..or…I will die very de
can bu ren du..tmr is going to
watch th fireworks.. hope it
will be a wonderful show…don’t
wanna think abt the life
after the national day holiday….
coz..its going to be a very
hard&tough de period…nowadays
muz work hard…should
not slack anymore…..jia you loh…
for a better result….
By..xin qing guai guai de
Bian bian

2005-08-06T16:01:00.000+08:00

~便便~de Lifes***
slack in library..
i am now in library..mum borrowing bks.. i am slacking here..feel much better today...
a lot of things happened yesterday...luckily....everything is fine now..thx to all my frenz again..
cynn...liang liang...mr pig..thank u......a lot....u guys are really great...now i feel great..ha ha
..so dont worry lah... ha ha ha......dont know wat to say liao..veri tired today,,hope u guys can enjoy
this holiday...take care.....ha ha ha....thx ah....and.......cyn...stop hking my account........u got to
change this bad habbit....ha ha ha....
by..gan ji bu jing de
bian bian

2005-08-04T18:13:00.000+08:00

~便便~***
~便便~de Lifes***
my lazy life..
generally ...2dae is a beautifuul day..except for the history test lah...yesterday cynn hked my account ..how come all my account can be hk by her so easily..ai...i jus woke up..i slept like 4 hrs..this is really unhealthy life style..but i like it..ha ha....no test tmr...but got to prepare my lang art test...muz work hard liao...jiao you oh...now go and watch TV..so i wil work hard ltr on...ha ha ha..
PS..2dae got saboed by zhu xi to go for the tan jiang thing....Darren...i swear i will teake revenge de...watch out hor...
PPS..YIfang is really quite cute...2dae know her official;y...its gd 2 know more frenz..good for health..ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha.....
PPPS....my blog name should change to bian bian de lame diary...
ha ha ha..
by lame de
bian bian %_%

2005-08-03T18:52:00.000+08:00

~便便~de Lifes***
yo....sleepy day...
hey..my dear friends ..thx for ur concern..i am quite ok now..ha ha..dont worry for me..2dae we learnt the nd dance..thats really a stupid dance..
ha ha..anyway..tmr i will hav my history test...tonight is going to b another hard night for me..nowadays...i fell defeated so easily..ha ha ha..
i am not working hard enough...ai...unfortunately.. i got no energy to work hard...ha ha ha...yesterday crap a lot....sm useless stuff...i always got a lot of crap to say one...ha ha ha..so talented...ha ha ha..
ok..i shall stop crapping...and work on my history..
by super boring de
bian bian ..&_&

2005-08-02T19:15:00.000+08:00

~便便~de Lifes***
Chem test over....
isnt it good to hear that my chem test is over?ha ha ..i shall not be that happi...
yap..my chem test is finalli over..now i am still not too sure that its a good news or bad news..ha ha ha...after i had striving so hard for it..i still firmly believe taht i am going to fail tt with flying colours...sb muz be very de happi when u saw this ,huh? anyway, i think i got tried my best.....as to the result..ou oh..i dont think it will be that nice..ai....thats pretty sad...but life has to go on as usual....isnt it...i shall work hard for my next test...thats all i should do now...hey...cecilia....now is the time to catch up...jia you oh....carry on working in this attitude,, i do believe that i will receive the good result..ha ha ..jia you loh...
by xing xin man man de
bian bian ..
PS...last night ..i had made a big mistake..i shouldnt broke down in front of sb..now i get bao ying liao....ai....U IDIOT.....
ha ha ha....

2005-08-02T16:25:00.000+08:00

~便便~de Lifes***
><.....wat happened..........

2005-08-02T16:17:00.000+08:00

~便便~de Lifes***
Tired........Tired

i am so so so tired ...
ha ha ha.......i am going to sleep now..........
ha ha .....so sleepy..........so tired.....ltr still
got history assignment ti write....and the stupid
chinese bao zhang du hou gan...........ah......feel
like dont know how to write....my brain is full of
the acid, bases and alts stuff...there is no english
vocab in my mind....ah dont want to write liao....
generally today quite happi....ha ha ...feel quite sorry for sb....yesterday........stop tlaking in half way..
ha ha ha....sorry lah............now go to sleep liao....
wish me sweet dreams...........
by super tired de
bian bian

2005-08-01T15:03:00.000+08:00

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now in school de com lab 1.....editting my lang atrs film......finally................ finish my math test..........ai.hope mr ng can be more lenient........ha ha ha........so i can pass my test..................so thx ah......mr ng or mr helmi.....muack muuack u guys first.ha ha ha......................2dae........i am supposed to revose 4 my test.ha ha ha..........but end up .......i am slacking here writing bloggie...........ai ai ai. i am so so sooooooooooooooooooo bad................they r working on the film...but i am slacking here.so sorry for them...................ha ha ha.nothing to say liao.wish me good luck for my test......... the teacher teach us the editting auite chio eh.liang liang also agreewith tt..
by slacker
bian bian

2005-07-31T10:36:00.000+08:00

~便便~de Lifes***
@_@.......
ha ha ha......feel quite good when u slack at hm.........finally ...there is one sunday tt i dont need to face the teacher.........listen to her talking in the sleepy language..............
i told them i got a lot of tests next wk..........then ........ha ha ha ........i was granted to stay at hm n study for my tests...............ha ha ha ............ai ai ai......but got to do a lot of housework.....................dad............when u are coming back to free me from al thez houseworks..............................................ai ai ai...............where i got the time to study.....................ai ai ai...............i think my geng nian qi coming oh.........feel so frustrated...................ai ............hate tests............hate sunday............
by ...........xin qin super bu shuang de
bian bian...........

2005-07-30T15:37:00.000+08:00

~便便~***

find a very nice de article......ha ha ha.......
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不知是读书的时候做了一个梦，还是梦中梦见我在读书。
那是一个神话。你就是那书中的精灵。
开心着，忧郁着，震撼着，陶醉着把你记下。
丰满着你漂亮的羽翼

你抱着我的灵魂。温暖你的身体。
怯怯的蜷作一团。
羞涩的让我看着你的脸
我读着那表情，那心思，读着在你怀里解读自己身体那些淡淡的情素

小心翼翼的带着你在潮湿中穿行

夜深人静，你是我的坐骑，我的绵羊，我的附属物。
我任性的牵着你大踏步向前走

其实你很乖巧。其实你很温顺。静静的。我感受着你

感受到你的疲惫。
我背起你。
让我来负担你的所有。
本该就是这样的

我们走过的路，变成了温暖的回忆，在这茫茫而冰凉的路上。
只有我与你是不同的记忆

雨。
我遮住雨。
笼罩着你。
看着你眼中的我。
其实你不知道那只是花瓣雨。
因为你的眼中只有我

后来我们长大了。
懂得了分离。
在离别的分分秒秒里。
我学会了回忆。
然后淡淡的微笑。
笑那抹纯真

我的思念唤来了你。
默默的祈祷永不分离。
瞧，我在笑。
我把那微笑摘下来挂在你的面庞上。
粘住你。
让你微笑着回忆你是我的牵挂

by.........very touched de
bian bian

2005-07-30T12:55:00.000+08:00

~便便~***
Saturday~~Raining Day..........wo ho.......i luv raining......
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Its rainig now........ha ha ha......... i luv raining.........i am going to hav a lot of tests next week.....ha ha ha .....yet i am still slack here........ai......i think i am getting lazier and lazier........thats bad......i am going to feng shui shi fu there......my mum wanna change my name......wondering wats going to be my new name......ha ha ha.....mr** worried i am going to hav a funni name.........actualli i am also quited scared to get a stupid name or a name which is totali bu pei wo at all........ai ai ai .....dunno wat i am writing so far.........ai ai ai..........should stop here liao............muz control my phone bills liao.....i should not msg so much in the future liao.....em.....i swear......or i should not talk too much in the phone liao.....i swear.........
by xin qing normal n a bit worried de
bian bian

2005-07-29T23:39:00.000+08:00

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ha ha ha today................is also veri de......fun.........ha ha ha ......y.........coz i got free slaves.......opps !!!!!!should say free domestic helpers help me 2 carri the files home.........ha ha ha .......thx ah.........i know u wil see it........ha ha ha.....seriousli...thx very de much........i muz confess tt i can carry tt thing home without any problem......its a piece of cake for me.....ha ha ha......but i juz realise tt..........its fun 2 bully u.........ha ha ha........sorri............ha ha ha ha ha ha haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...also as my future brother-in-law........u should help me n take it as a kao yan........ha ha ha.........muz work hard these dayz...... i am going to hav math test monday......chemistry on tue.....history on thu.........ai....life sux though there is a poor one for me to bully......ha ha ha......
PS:
Thank u lah mr ** for helping me to carry the files n sorri for wasting ur time..........ha ha ha ..... iknew u doesnt like ice lemon tea....... so i will treat u ice peach tea next time.........ha ha ha ha ha .........good nitz.........
PPs:thank you ...lord for granting me the happiness as well as my laughters.. thank you for giving me such nice friends...pease bless me and guide me to do well in my tests..
PPPs: 2dae made bian bian sculpture 2.......so happi to see tt....ha ha and my real sculpture work is really veri nice........

by:
veri haapi n zi lian de
bian bian......

2005-07-28T23:05:00.000+08:00

~便便~***

ha ha ha....mum n dad quarell again...so noisy......cant take it.....y my dd cant simply take mm suggestionssss............
there is nothing wrong with it wah.....wat 4 2 b so stubborn...
ai......shou bu liao.......2dae's lesson veri de xian loh....gotta go liao ....stop here 1st

2005-07-28T18:15:00.000+08:00

tuesday.....math test postponed.....
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: i am soooooooooooooooooooooo happi 2dae...ha ha .....Mr helmi...Rox.....ha ha ha...becoz our beloved mr sng....mr helmi had no choice but potponed the stupid test to next monday.........ha ha ha ....thats so good..........ha ha ha ....another amazing thing is......i did not sleep in 2daes lesson even though i had less than 3 hrs sleeping time yesterday.........ha ha ha.....maybe i should sleep a bit little in e future....ha ha ha......today...juz feel happi.......happi....happi.....and happi............ha ha ha ......best dae of this month........
PS: 2dae sux chines test...ask me 2 summarise a damn long psg into only 80 wds.... i am not genius ....ok?...eventhough my chinese quite pro......ha ha ha .... i am so zi lian....ha ha ha ## got the pnt...... i am veri de zi lian.....
by....
bian bian.....